morning thoughts

it's nearly time to get the kids up for school, but i just want to blog a bit before the day gets away.

the other day when i was meeting with the teachers and principal at school, they suggested that we go for counseling at the Austin Child Guidance Center. i just now looked the place up and i'm going to call them today. they can offer whole family sessions, which i think would be good. i feel like we're at the end of our rope in trying to help the boys on our own.

when i look at my kids i don't see them as having problems. i just see their quirkiness as just a part of them. they have strengths and they have weaknesses, we all do. but other people see those things as weirdness, things that ought not to be there. something that needs fixing.

next week i start back at my two different jobs at the church. i am really dreading the one. i just really do not want to work for the Classical Conversations group, but i'm committed to it through this next semester. so i'll shoulder on and make the best of it. maybe my perception is wrong, but the whole thing seems so pretentious. they call their classes and levels by strange names that nobody in education uses anymore, and they all seem to be trying to outdo one another. when i tell them that no, my kids aren't in CC, they go to public school, these moms get all nervous-looking, like they're not sure they should leave their toddlers with me. i might corrupt them. it takes a toll on me emotionally. almost every Tuesday last semester i went home with feelings of guilt, that maybe i really am a bad mom for not teaching my kids latin chants at home and history facts in song form.

well, i'm off to get the kidlets to school.